Thursday, July 1, 2010

Corners and Currants

A few months ago I had a pretty negative attitude about the way my life was going due to some disappointments and hurts. Well... no. Redact. Not due to them... but due to my reaction to them. I wasn't acting but was allowing myself to be acted upon, so to speak. But over these last several months and particularly the last several weeks, I have felt this sense of liberation and happiness. I feel like something great is happening in my life and that blessings are right around the corner. I see it as a huge miracle that Heavenly Father protects me from so much and sees me so perfectly that He can guide me—albeit at times kicking and screaming— down paths that I wouldn't go down on my own. Then we turn a corner and I see what He's guiding me towards and I stop with my tantrum and say "Ohhh... okay." Just takes faith. And hope. And trust.


Sometimes when I feel overlooked, I realize after some time, some walking, and a few corners that it isn't the case at all. I'm not overlooked, I'm looked over. I'm not being passed up... I'm being pushed up. And thank goodness there is a God above who knows what's best for me, especially when I don't. If my life was left in my clumsy hands, I would've dropped or broken or lost it by now. Instead I am guided and upheld by righteous and omnipotent hands. I'm so glad that in times of intensity and growth, the Lord also instructs and enlightens. I read this recently in a book and loved it. 


I was living up in Canada. I had purchased a farm. It was run-down. I went out one morning and saw a currant bush. It had grown up over six feet high. It was going all to wood. There were no blossoms and no currants. I was raised on a fruit farm in Salt Lake before we went to Canada, and I knew what ought to happen to that currant bush. So I got some pruning shears and went after it, and I cut it down, and pruned it, and clipped it back until there was nothing left but a little clump of stumps. It was just coming daylight, and I thought I saw on top of each of these little stumps what appeared to be a tear, and I thought the currant bush was crying. I was kind of simpleminded (and I haven’t entirely gotten over it), and I looked at it, and smiled, and said, “What are you crying about?” You know, I thought I heard that currant bush talk. And I thought I heard it say this: “How could you do this to me? I was making such wonderful growth. I was almost as big as the shade tree and the fruit tree that are inside the fence, and now you have cut me down. Every plant in the garden will look down on me, because I didn’t make what I should have made. How could you do this to me? I thought you were the gardener here.” That’s what I thought I heard the currant bush say, and I thought it so much that I answered. I said, “Look, little currant bush, I am the gardener here, and I know what I want you to be. I didn’t intend you to be a fruit tree or a shade tree. I want you to be a currant bush, and some day, little currant bush, when you are laden with fruit, you are going to say, ‘Thank you, Mr. Gardener, for loving me enough to cut me down, for caring enough about me to hurt me. Thank you, Mr. Gardener.’”

I wanted to tell you that oft-repeated story because there are many of you who are going to have some very difficult experiences: disappointment, heartbreak, bereavement, defeat. You are going to be tested and tried to prove what you are made of. I just want you to know that if you don’t get what you think you ought to get, remember, “God is the gardener here. He knows what he wants you to be.” Submit yourselves to his will. Be worthy of his blessings, and you will get his blessings.
Elder Hugh B. Brown
Bring on the blessings. 

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

*Movies I could watch over and over and never get sick of

This one is easy.
  • All three Pirates of the Caribbean movies
  • All three of the Bourne movies
  • Stranger Than Fiction
  • The Three Amigos
  • Animated Robin Hood
Note to self: Remember Lizzie, you usually don't enjoy chick flicks very much. Stop letting your roommates talk you into watching them. Musicals are a different story, however. 

Thanks, self. 

Monday, June 28, 2010

Speaking of music...

Thanks Mel.

*About Music

I love music.

I love all kinds of music and can't ever seem to give a definitive response when asked what my favorite kind is.  James Taylor,  Ingrid Michaelson, Nat King Cole, Arcade Fire, Andrew Bird, Josh Radin, Goo Goo Dolls, Feist, Celine Dion, Coldplay etc. etc.
5 artists that inspire me to buy every song on their album because they're always awesome:
  • Journey
  • Jimmy Eat World
  • Mae
  • Missy Higgins
  • Guster
5 artists that I've recently been enjoying:
  • Sherwood
  • U2
  • Death Cab
  • Michael Buble
  • Regina Spektor
Five current favorite songs:
  • "Life in Technicolor II" by Coldplay
  • "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For"- U2 (this has been in my top 5 for years)
  • "Songbird" by Eva Cassidy
  • "Mona Lisa" by Guster
  • "Cath" by Death Cab for Cutie
Sometimes when I am driving home from work and I'm tired and hungry I am just so excited to walk in my house and sit on the couch and talk to my roommates...  a song will come on the ipod that will not only keep me in my car but it will keep me circling the block just so I can listen to the whole thing. THAT qualifies as a good song. It happened yesterday with a classical piece (Dvorak's 9th, 4th movement- another all-time favorite)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

On Fishing

I should be sleeping. I am so tired...

But instead I'm lying in my bed thinking about fishing. Yep. you read that right, fishing. I haven't been for years and years. And I really really really really have had this strong desire to go lately. And I don't know why.

For the past year I've really wanted to learn how to fish and then go... often. I think it started while floating down the Provo River last year with friends and seeing these guys out there fishing in their awesome hats and vests and waders. They were so happy... whistling, waving serenely at us as we floated past, some of them joking with us like they were going to catch our tubes with their hooks and sink us. I was so intrigued that I went home and wrote on my to-do list "Learn to Fish." I read online. I was at the library and had some time to kill and went and looked at some books. I even went to DI for the express purpose of buying a dinky pole I could start on. I was unsuccessful, but I still hopefully look every time I'm there.

Again, this overwhelming desire hit tonight as I lie in my bed. I really want to go fishing. That's not only a man-hobby is it? And its not too late to start a new hobby at 25, I'm sure of it. See how serene it looks? And I would love to go through my day at work knowing that afterward I'd get to grab my tackle box and pole and drive on up Provo Canyon.

That's it. I'm taking up fishing.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

On Mountains

Thoughts on hiking.

As I'm walking up a particularly steep trail, I feel like I'm in a constant conversation with the mountain... as if I'm negotiating. Every step is just that: a negotiation. An assessment of the rocks and dirt and the placement of my boot. An agreement with the mountain that as long as I take my time and study out my next move before I actually make it then the mountain will accept my effort and allow me to keep my steady footing. But the minute I get distracted, start taking the mountain for granted, or begin to get cocky and think myself the master of the mountain, I am humbled as I fall hard on my hands and knees, in painful supplication. Then I apologize and promise to be good and kind and gentler... and in turn I receive the same treatment.

When I stand on the top of the highest point and look down, I feel as if the mountain bows towards me respectfully acknowledging my accomplishment. I'm neither the conqueror nor the conquered... we simply mutually applaud one another. As long as I respect the mountain, I will be allowed to descend safely and with dignity. And from the top, you earn a different view of where you've come from, of the beauty around you, of the people with you, and of yourself. For me a mountain is all about self-discovery and mastery, not so much the exploration of nature and mastery of her boulders and peaks. The scenic views and triumphant ascents are perks, not designs.

I also wonder what the deer up in the mountains think of me. Do they point to each other and marvel that a human would dare venture into their backyard? We do that when deer show up in our backyards... we gasp and run to the window and call out to others, directing their attention towards the animal tip-toeing around outside. Do the deer wonder what those strange looking animals are doing when they find us in their world?

Oooooooooooookay...

How can you not LOVE THIS?!?!



I love the World Cup. Italy and I currently aren't on speaking terms but we'll get over it soon, mostly because I think Italy is really really sorry and wants to make it up to me. In the meantime, I am loving everything else about soccer.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Good Day, Bad Day

When we were little, my mom and I had us do something at dinner called "Good Day, Bad Day" during which we had to tell everyone in the family a good thing about our day and a bad thing about our day. I think the game was invented because I tended to monopolize the dinner conversation while my older brother Danny sat in silence pushing his peas around his plate. The problem is sometimes I would do Danny's "Good Day, Bad Day" for him.

But anyway, today I will share with you my Good Day, Bad Day.

Bad Day:

Essentially ran everywhere I went at work today for 13 hours in new shoes that hurt my feet.

Good Day:

Started the day off hearing President Eyring give one of the best talks I've ever heard.
Stood behind Elder Nelson in line for the drinking fountain.
Gave a small wave to Elder Holland in the hallway... and he smiled back.
Heard both Elder Holland and Elder Nelson speak along with their wives.
Found out that nylons and long skirts are no longer requirements for my work attire.
Had training with my teachers on the lawn outside because the weather is awesome.
Passed Elder Oaks in the hallway.
Heard Elder Hinckley tell stories about his dad.
Met several of the brand new Mission Presidents and their wives, including my Uncle and Aunt. 
Was taught about miracles and patience by the Italian missionaries in Italian. 
Found out I get to hear from President Uchtdorf tomorrow morning.
Went to Tucanos for lunch... courtesy of the MTC. Loved Brazilian food. 
LOVED MY JOB.

Honestly, I get a little overwhelmed sometimes to think about how much I love my work and how lucky I am to be there.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Dear World Cup,

I hope you don't think this is too forward of me... but I know that we've been spending a lot of time together lately and I think that I will always regret not telling you... because I think people should just come out and say things like this... so... you should know...

I love you.

I truly do.

I wish you were being nicer to Italy right now, though. But it's okay because you have time to change that. Maybe my expressing my love for you will soften you up a little and you'll help Italy stop these tied-games they keep working themselves into...

But I still love you.

With all my heart,

Lizzie

P.S. The vuvuzelas are getting a little annoying, dear.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Toy Story 3

... is the best movie I have ever seen.

F. A. O. MY SHWARZ!

Couldn't stop laughing. 

Go see it.

Now.

Go.





I'm serious.

P.S. Things to look for: the tortilla, Buzz dancing his Latin Dance around Jessie in the bushes, death by monkeys, and any scene with the Ken Doll in it.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Why Italy Is Hilarious, Part 2

The Mafia= hilarious

Okay, maybe hilarious isn't the right word in all contexts. Corrupt, horrific, devastating, deplorable, and ickyickygross are all other words that would be appropriate for the Italian Mafia. I could tell you stories that would make your eyes pop out of your face (also ickyickygross) but these are supposed to be hilarious reasons so instead, I will tell you about the laughable parts of the mob.

First, a little background. The Mafia has a very strict code that all "family members" must hold to. They vary from family to family. A family is a certain sect of the Mafia that rule a certain territory. Oftentimes different families compete for territory and leverage. If you live within the boundaries of a certain family, you must pay them a kind of protection tax and in exchange they will guard you from neighboring families that might try to bully you.

With me so far? Well, the following list was taken from a type-written sheet that was seized by the Italian police when they apprehended Italian Mafia Lord (mob boss) Salvatore Lo Piccolo in 2007. He is a serious serious bad guy and is now in jail. (Hilarious note: Salvatore Lo Piccolo means "Savior The Small") The following are 10 commandments (Rights and Duties) of Cosa Nostra (the Italian term for the mafia... it means "our thing"):

1- No one can present himself directly to another of the family There must be a third person to do it.

2- Never look at the wives of the family.

3- Never be seen with cops.

4- Don't go to bars and clubs.

5-Always being available for Cosa Nostra is a duty-- even if your wife's about to give birth.

6- Appointments must absolutely be respectful.

7- Wives must be treated with respect.

8- When asked by a family member for any information, the answer must be the truth.

9- Money cannot be appropriated if it belongs to others in the family

10- People who can't be part of Cosa Nostra: anyone who has a close relative in the police, anyone with a two-timing relative, anyone who behaves badly and doesn't hold to moral values.

Another hilarious mafia story: Pasquale Manfredi (whose name translates into "Easter-related Cold-hands"... seriously) was a Mafia boss that was being tracked by police for a series of murders. How did they find him? A facebook status update telling his facebook friends where he was.

One more. Elder Davey Johnson was in my MTC group and is like a brother to me. He's also about 8 feet tall and weighs 600 pounds. He played college football and looked it. It was 2 days after we first arrived in Italy and he had been sent down to Naples to serve in his first city. Naples is incredibly corrupt and notoriously crime-ridden (Sisters aren't allowed down there but my pride and joy of the mission is that my mission president asked me to go give a training to the Elders down there so I was the only sister to get to Napoli... so awesome) and Naples is famous for having a very strong Mafia influence. In the middle of his first full day in Italy, Davey was robbed by this squirrelly little whisp of a man who took his backpack and wallet. Inside the backpack was nothing but scriptures and pass-along cards and the wallet was pretty empty as well so it was more of an inconvenience than a crime. But nevertheless, Davey was a bit bummed. He and his companion got to church that Sunday and members found out what had happened. Davey was surprised when a stern younger Italian woman came up to him and began to scold him. Not able to understand Italian, he turned to his companion to translate, who told him what she was saying.

"Elders! How many times do I have to tell you! You run into trouble like this and you call me! If you had called me right after this happened I could have your stuff back in minutes but this might take a while. I'll see what I can do though..."

With that she whipped out her cell phone and stalked out onto the church's balcony. Confused, Davey asked his companion what she meant. He looked amused and said "She's the daughter of one of the biggest Mafia Lords in Naples and her dad just happens to love the missionaries. I think she thinks she can get you backpack back for you by calling her dad and having him talk to his people."

Sure enough, by the end of the 3 hour block Davey's backpack was sitting in the bushes outside the church. Everything was put nicely back inside and his wallet was set neatly on top.

That is another reason why Italy is hilarious.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I miss being a kid...

Note to self: When you have kids, make sure you build forts with them. Often. And please don't be all adult-y afterward and tell them they have to clean it all up before bedtime. Let them keep it up for a few days.

In short... let your kids be kids, Lizzie. Because today you really missed being a kid.

Thanks, self.

I worked all day today and make big grown up decisions and I had to talk about firing someone and make more stressful choices and in the middle of the day all I wanted to do was make a fort. Right there in my office. Around my desk. I wanted to take off my shoes and get a juice box and some wonder bread and the Power Rangers movie and sit under my desk. If I had actually made that fort I can promise you that in seconds, I'd become the cool coordinator and everyone would want to work on my team. Either that or I would have become the weird one in the office... but that's a price I'm willing to pay.

Don't you just miss being a kid sometimes? Spending all day every day playing?

Like playing the lava game... we could play the best lava game EVER in my office because we could easily climb over cubicles and leap from the printer to the copier. Everyone played some sort of variation of the lava game growing up... for some it was sharks or acid or space. Where did we learn that game? Maybe from our older siblings. But what about those who don't have older siblings? And yes, they play the lava game in Italy. And England. I witnessed both. How did the phenomenon start?


My cousins and siblings and I spent hours in the tree in our backyard one summer. We brought boards up there and had "rooms." One branch was called the "lobby" and we called it the tree hotel. We'd just sit up there all day. Molly and I also spent a week for three consecutive summers up the the plum tree picking fruit for our "Plum Ice Cream," which was actually disgusting but our parents would eat it and rave about it to humor us. Grandma Di was the best about making us feel good about our Plum Ice Cream. What was in it Molly? I think it was something like pulverized plums, whipped cream, lots of sugar, sometimes some juice, and other random things.

Sometimes when Molly and I were mad at our moms, we'd run away to the side of Molly's house and we'd bring a blanket and a Great Harvest cookie. If we were really mad, we'd run away to Dagny Gold's house and when we finally went back to Aunt Katie's we were annoyed to realized that our moms didn't even know we were gone.

In one of our houses in Chicago the room Kathy and I shared had a walk-in closet. I remember taking books, blankets, my stuffed elephant, and fruit snacks and climbing up to the top shelf of the closet. I'd sit up there forever reading. I remember getting huge stacks of books from the library and reading them all in just a few days.
We had a big pit across the street from that same house in Chicago. It had huge hills perfect for rolling and sledding. We loved going there after it had rained a ton because we got to play in the mud. I remember going to Danny's baseball games and playing spy under the bleachers. Sometimes if I was really nice the Treat Mom would give me game treat at the end. I remember playing soccer games on Saturdays and sometimes having to stay for Kathy's soccer games and my dad would get me a hot dog and berry starbursts to eat while I watched her. I remember summer swimming lessons.


Another summer my cousins and siblings and I discovered a gap between our neighbors fence and our fence. We played runaway children back there and build houses out of boxes. Molly and I played Animal City growing up. I still have all of my Animal City stuff. I miss doing that.
 Danny and I used to go to the park by our house with his best friend Adam and they would catch crawdads in the canal while I made swings out of the willow tree's branches by the lake.
I remember running around barefoot everywhere as a kid. I remember sitting on the front porch with my dad and watching the rain and thinking that it looked like a bunch of little bugs running all over the pavement. I remember my mom talking us to the park or the pool. I remember her drawing with chalk on our front steps. I remember rollerblading. I remember my skip-it that had a counter in it so I could keep track of all of the skips. I remember Saturday morning cartoons.

We would put on plays and sometimes stage the Olympics in the cul-de-sac we lived in. Neighborhood nightgames were a nightly occurrence. Once my friend Kristen Avers and this other red-headed girl and I put on Beauty and the Beast and I definitely played the part of the Beast. Awesome. I think I was Gaston too... I was basically all the boy parts. I remember riding bikes to the 7-11 with Danny and Kathy and getting laffy taffy and sour gummy worms... playing made up games like "Monsters" and "Swordfight" with all three of my siblings... rubbing my dad's shaving cream into the carpet when I was supposed to be taking a nap... sneaking into my sister's room during Sunday quiet time and reading the comics... spending hours making videos... singing Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream coat with Kathy and Kendra at the top of our lungs while wearing various dress-ups... playing school and store and wrestling and exploring.



But now I am an adult. I have insurance. I have a 401k. I have a salary. I have to buy things and drive places and be grown up. That is why I am determined to allow my kids to be kids... and maybe sometimes play with them as if I was a kid again too.

Monday, June 7, 2010

The latest and greatest...

Announcement: My nephew's birthday party was a complete success, which may or may not be attributed his wearing this hat backwards.

He is a complete ham and makes the same squinty-eyed grinny face in every picture ever. He was far more interested in eating the wrapping paper than playing with his new toys but that'll change. 

He was a little timid with his cake at first but then the sugar drunkenness kicked in. And the way he's holding the spoon in this picture makes him look like he's singing Celine Dion at a karaoke party.
Such a cute little guy. I got him a golf set so he can go golfing with Danny. He need to learn to walk first though. 


A few days later, Johnny and my dad and I climbed Mount Olympus.
Beautiful beautiful mountain.
And Kendra was there too.

Later that day, I went to REI and they paid me two dollars to walk out the door with this dress.
 (Only, mine is in blue because I never wear any other color.) 

Yep. Paid me. As in they handed me two dollars and said "Lizzie, will you please leave this store with these two dollars and this dress that you like?" and I said, "Sure REI, that is so kind of you. I will be back to spend more money soon." That is what happened. Basically. The Memorial Day sale plus the REI dividend (when you shop there a lot and you're a member, they give you some money back at the end of the year to go get whatever you want...) made it so I actually made money off of getting this dress I've been eying for weeks. If that isn't a good deal than I don't know what is...

Stay tuned for the next installment of "why Italy is hilarious"... it'll be a good one.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Dear MTC vending machines,

Please stop stocking Chaco Tacos or eventually the MTC will have to buy me a new chair. 

Most sincerely, 

Lizzie Jones

P.S. This pictures says way more than a thousand words... love it.

Dear overactive imagination,

Sometimes I need you to chill out. 

Today I feel like I pulled several muscles jumping to conclusions.

I hate feeling that way.

So I think I'll have some chocolate milk.

Glad we could have this talk.

Lizzie